November Rain v2

November Rain v2

If I left in November you think we’d still be together
Hung on for life in any kind of weather
Just can’t bond and I know you can’t burn leather
What ever…
Whether or not I did or didn’t leave sooner we were supposed to help each other
I’m dealing with insanity - both clinical and lunar my brother
9-11x insanity
I can even name the exact times they were brainwashing me
And that’s the side you chose over me
But it’s ok - it’s just how how it be
Drilling me?
My shadows don’t leave when it’s dark
And I’m conflicted about making my mark
I’m going back…
Nothing even interests me anymore
But you have no clue what you did when you lied to my mother and said I was some type of coke whore
My head would literally roll off my shoulders to the floor
Never before never after
Never no more
And the sickest part? Their laughter
You have no heart for me or where I’ve been or been thru
You kicked me down to dirt believing lies you didn’t even see and refusing to see what’s true
Yeah… I wanted to help but you’re the one that keep closing that door
And now love don’t live here - not now, not again and definitely never anymore
What them bitches up to? 4?

You can talk so much but even you can never see
Or understand what it’s like to be me
Cause you built it yourself, you helped them put me back in solitary
Toe to toe - friend or foe
I don’t know and don’t even have time to care
St Mary pls don’t forget the victims when you praying for them sinners up there
I can’t believe and trusted you too, I don’t mind being solo as long as I got 2
Luck wouldn’t permit it
And I’m broken - beyond repair and I admit it
I always hang on too long when it’s wrong and things always switch again
For some guy I dated for 2 weeks and his family?
Alright nothing to be said then…
What if it happened to you
But you too good -
And you did what good people do
While telling me im not right
But won’t tell me what’s wrong
And you know how sick I get when we fight
And I do, I do pray 2 coming back isn’t that long
I didn’t want to give you up
You don’t understand the peace and comfort I trusted
Or maybe you did and just didn’t care
But really it wasn’t until last night that you were finally busted
Done trying you were 5
You would’ve been my fifth downfall
Everytime I tried…
And be happy
And get a life
And hope that for me in return too
What would you do if you did it for everybody
But not one did it for you
I’m mad… because before I met you
I already swore I wouldn’t leap again
Shit gone too far and now we ain’t even friends
Especially not the ones that pretend
All you do is lie to me
And then talk about how slow it take for me to see
I love you though
We just lost our match
My heart? Don’t worry
There’s no holes to patch
Sitting here all alone again
And like…
All my choices were taken from me
And that’s the shit that God has to see
And when you laughed at the gas pump it was the last straw for me
Stuck in some artificial world and I’ll probably never be free
Way to hit one in for the team of humanity