Jicera’s Father

Jiceras Father

How do I make it up to you cause I didn’t have a clue and how you had the patience for that?
Especially since I was a white, rich, spoiled, brat?
I believe you knew I couldn’t talk to you
But it’s true
I really did see and hear you
Always too…
I’m just like why you just didn’t tell me
Especially before your mom died - or should I have been scared to meet her cause Im the one that lied
But them doves still cried
I don’t think anyone has ever took the time to watch over me
And here you are as superficial and mean as you must’ve thought I be
Nah… they took my memory…
I really didn’t know but even when you thought I did…
You stood by me
Was a man and fought for our kid
I’m just mad but now glad I never had another one
The only one (one father) but you and me?
CH said we would’ve had 3…
Look at me now and tell me…
ARE you finally free?
Don’t be…
Dont ever leave this earth again without me
And I’m not trying to kiss your ass
Just the pain I caused…
And how long them tears must’ve last
I just wanted to say sorry
This shit right here???
They say everyone has a past
But to be honest… it became the best of us
I remember the rain kissed sand now and how our lips just touched
I love you but not just skipping to you with the same type of crush
But I at least owe you the respect now that I know…
you’ll always come first
And I know you would’ve loved that for some reason I still prefer the $20 purse (pens) pens stain…
I never imagined you in a hurse… Yet I always knew the gift can also be a curse
But shit like this you just can’t rehearse
I know one good day can take 100 away of hurt
But you know that mostly… I’m a realest
And most flowers… grow in dirt

It shouldn’t be so hard… let’s change that

Cause my ex bf back then told me - probably like you assuming I knew

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Joan, Chris, and Kerry… that was you wasn’t it when you asked me why black names are so unique LOL… I’m glad that you’re still alive to me

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Not built for that life anymore though…

Someone just won’t let me stand back up and get a life for myself and I really don’t understand why…

Okay, I thought this drop was heart felt, worked, and flowed well. This is one of those poetic type of family love drops. Always painful when family members pass away.

Descent Drop.

Yeah… I was reminded he really gone tonight…

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At least his human is… I still see him