get the 2 million
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
He a dick riding faggot just like the rest of them… I’m better then a jump off
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Nobody loves me 50… I was just his jump off
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Why am I always the jump off?
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I only drink to cry… it’s the only way I can
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I have no friends I have nobody
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Why am I always the jump off?
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
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I have the most twisted dreams ever… last night? I saw my father he faked his own death, my old friend was sleeping with my Fiance, and I was sleeping with my other old friend which was a female and she had a dick!!!! Gross as fuck lmao
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Twisted as fuck
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I can’t even escape my mental health in my sleep!!!!!
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I always have dreams about my old friends like we still friends or ever will be again - it’s annoying as hell like even my dreams are disrespecting me!!!!
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This song was popular when I was in inpatient as a kid
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
Street of Philadelphia v2
I can’t explain the pain I feel right now… exiled for being insane and trying to explain how… when we reach the depths of grip
just remember I ain’t lie to you one bit
Sit my brother I’ll explain to you how, how as a woman and why right now
I don’t know friendship and I don’t know love all I knew was war and the makings of what it come of
I have a family of 5 and lost 2
I lost everything inside myself and the reprecussions of what life do
But every dream I ever had I saved to give you
One last breath in this fight
And all the rest thru
God over everything and nobody can really say what to him be wrong or right. I had a soul I had a passion I had a mother who taught me high fashion …
But like all that is gone now in just one night
it’s like I just lost every fight
I watched your eyes as you drove away
A pain I despise that hurts in every way
You have a chance and I’d never take that from you
But to understand me more is what I was trying to do
I had a memory of sitting in the cold rain
Stuck in a storm and stare from all this told pain
Is it the same?
I really don’t know…
I’m a dead man walking and it’s really not for show
Just wanted you to know…
Why on the streets we all grow
Why on these beats my pen flow
Why a defeat when it was us standing toe to toe
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
Why does it feel like they are literally in my flesh? How do I make my old friends just leave me alone?
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
My high school friend JV past away on the 5th… last night I think we were talking. I went to an alternative center for school before they were popular so we all were “bad” kids… but on the weird so many of us have past away young - so I told him I didn’t do it but if I make it - I’m a write it and build it so all you all live forever
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
Ironically I’m at school and 2 of the girls married the man they met at age 13
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
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I had a feeling Magic was your old security… why he just didn’t tell me that?
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That day when he said you’d be disappointed changed my whole worlld… so I got back up
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
I’m trying to find what I wrote back to sweet serenade… I hate when I lost shit - I think it started with “I was registered 4/28/78” or born 4/26/78
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Am I April?
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That’s why what they wrote was so good I was jealous lmao
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
I don’t want to be that bitch that makes excuses for him but yo I love that man to death and fighting back for this one 🖤
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Like… I know… I know for facts… she came at him cause he can only see mutual friends and didn’t know her last name
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But he played back… for over a year and even started to treat me different… we back and good now
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I just always thought MY man wouldn’t do me like that… or more confused like why would he be my peace and comfort if they did do me like that?
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Yo bitch… even if you DO steal my man… I ain’t going NO WHERE just CAUSE now
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I’m not losing him or my peace and comfort ever again - unless it’s fake
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I ain’t going no where either… you wanted to share… FINE we share but I’m not sleeping with if YOU still are
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We not KKK I don’t have to fuck her bf now
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At least I’m not
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I love my bf and I will stand still
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McDonald’s has streak egg and chess bagels… I’m about to eat breakfast but it’s snowing
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Strak* I can’t stand a ghost that type thru me
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FOR REAL
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Steak*
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It’s not annoying it’s pompous and disrespectful
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I remember when ONE night of all night pacing would mean I’m sick and forced to inpatient
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My mom gonna be mad if I don’t go but idk what to do…. No sleep is equivalent to drunk to me
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Like I can’t even drive right type
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I hate being told what to do… sometimes it feels like if you just let me do it my way it will work out
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Their way isn’t helping me either
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I’ll take a nap until 7:30am and see how I look and feel
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When I’m tired I slur more and that’s sober or I look HORRRIBLE and feel uncomfortable… a lot on my mind means I won’t be able to keep up conversation… I think I decided I’m staying home but we see… nobody got Powerade either
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There’s an sxceprion in place - I forgot my note from the therapist
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Exception*
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Can’t wait for McDonald’s breakfast… I’ve been saving for 3 months to
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NO LIE,,, THAT BROKE
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I’m still spending my money on getting fatter now
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I miss my old meds
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Still spending money - it’s just all on food it feels like
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Nah that’s not my look either
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3 months for McDonald’s though… only homeless people know what that feels like
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And it’s been going on for YEARS
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Tired of being a leach and burden
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I was so happy with the money my dad left me to support myself
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It was only enough for like 6 months but I was happy again
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Whoa it’s snowing but I’d have to save for another 3 months to pay for uber eats to deliver
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Im gonna take a nap
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance